Saturday 27 August 2011

My Shoe Madness...^_^

Salam and great day,

Last night I just bought two new babies for Hari Raya...Wonder what babies is that, huh? It is shoes...!!!~ ^_^ 
I bought 3 pairs of shoes by which two for me, and one for my younger sister, Kayla. Owh, and it's SO ADORABLE!!!!~ ^_^ Let's take a look....



-2 pairs of Zucca International shoes, and 1 pair of Nichii shoe-



 Look at that all adorable babies!!!~ OMG!!~ Okey now I fall in love with Zucca International and intend to get another pair of shoe that I already aim to buy!!~ Its a wedges!!~ Awesome gorgeous wedges!!~ ^_^





Now Lets take a look at each ones!~ ^_^


Kayla's baby from Zucca International...So CATCHY and URBAN..!!!~ ^_^


I bought this one for her at Ole-Ole Section 18 Shah Alam... I've been there several times before lately, but never realized there's a new shoe shop opened there. It sell shoes from Nichii and Zucco International. Owh, how great knowing that after this I'm no longer need to go to Bukit Tinggi or Sunway Pyramid to get my Nichii Shoes..^_^


My White Baby Gladiator-Look-Alike High Heels....So Trendy and Catchy and Stylo!!~ ^_^


The aboved one is my Gladiator-Look-Alike shoe from Nichii...OMG!~ I don't know why I love design like this so much! From the flat shoe till the high heels, I just love the design!~ ^_^ This one is white in color...So trendy and catchy!!~


My unique and classic wood's high heels from Zucca International...^_^


The aboved one is my 2nd shoes for Hari Raya... ^_^ Look at the design!~ Seriosly, it is so unique!!~ Look a bit closer to its heels...it is carving uniquely!!~ Besides, it's look like so classic, yet so urban and I love that!~ Actually, I chose a brown one for this Zucca International because its look like more naked. You know what is mean by naked shoe? The shoe that reveal most of your skin. Sexy okay!~ ^_^ Well unfortunately, the size I don't know what happen, did not fit my feet. =.= So I have to pick the black one, same size, but it is more comfortable... ^_^

Hurm...Wanna see my part of my shoes collection?? ^_^ Here:


Part of my shoes collection....These are the old one...Need to change it now!~ ^_^


Orait then...Thats all for this entry about my madness towards shoes!!~

Till then,
Take care.

Wednesday 24 August 2011

the story of GIRL vs BOY (ep. 1)...

Salam and great day,

This is my another 'half-way' novel yang sampai sekarang tak siap-siap lagi...Hurm, what do you guys think? Ce bace...ce bace...!~ ^_^ (http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150128473160367)



“Hey Nia, isn’t that your boyfriend?”
Mel menyiku Nia lalu menunjukkan ke arah dua susuk tubuh tidak jauh dari tempat mereka berdiri.
“Where?” Nia mengecilkan matanya, mencari-cari arah yang dimaksudkan Mel.
“There! Dekat dalam kedai Seeds tu.” Mel menunjukkan lagi.
“Yeah! That’s him..” Nia mengangguk-anggukkan kepala seolah-olah tiada apa yang berlaku.
“Hey! This isn’t the right way you should act! Aren’t you jeolous? Kau tak marah ke?” Mel macam tak percaya tengok reaksi Nia. Kalau lah dia di tempat Nia, mau sakit hati bengkek dibuatnya! Mahu saja dia terkam jantan tu, lepas tu lempang banyak-banyak kali! Hah! Baru puas hati dia…
“Aku dah tau memang perangai dia mcam tu. Cuma baru sekarang dia buktikan dekat depan mata aku. Takpe…Dia nak main game ni, kita teruskan… Let see!”
Nia mengeluarkan handphone blackberry nya.
“Hai sayang… You dekat mana?” Lembut suara Nia di hujung telefon.
“Oh yeke? Tengah jalan-jalan teman Wan beli barang untuk girlfriend dia? Oh… ok..takpe…teruskan..” Nia tersenyum-senyum sinis dari jauh melihat kelibat boyfriendnya. Pandai cover line! Huh!!
“Mel, kau tunggu jap…aku nak amik gambar diorang..”
“Nia, apa kate kita serang je diorang, nak?”
“Eh, kau pulak yang lebih-lebih! Tak payah… buang masa je semua tu!” Nia menangkap beberapa keping gambar boyfriendnya bersama entah perempuan mana entah tu, dia tak tahu. “These…is the ticket for me to hang out with other man!” Nia menggoyang-goyangkan handphonenya.
“Sorry la aku nak biarkan dia mainkan aku macam tu je!”
“Nia, dia boyfriend kau! Kau patut pertahankan dia dari perempuan lain! Bukannya kau pulak yang pergi cari lelaki lain! Sengal la kau ni!” Mel mula merungut-rungut macam biasa.
“So what? He’s just my boyfriend, not my husband ok… And I’m just his girlfriend, not his wife… What’s a big deal on it?” Nia terus berlalu.
“Tapi Nia..ish! Aku tak paham la kau ni! Dulu dengan ex-boyfriend kau, kau tak macam ni pun…” Mel mengikuti di sebelah Nia, menuruni escalator.
“Mel…Shut up! Hey..open your glasses la!”
Nia menanggalkan cermin mata Mel.
“Kau tengok…lelaki macam tu, sesuai ke nak dijadikan lelaki? Belum apa-apa dah main kayu tiga… Dia nak kata apa? Kawan? Dowh… Kawan pegang-pegang tangan peluk-peluk pinggang macam tu ke? Sorry la Mel, bagi aku lelaki macam tu sesuai untuk dipermainkan je! Biar dia rasa macam mana perempuan rasa!”
Mel memandang Nia disebelahnya.
“Nia, kau ke ni? Takut pulak aku!”
“Mel, jangan jadi lemah sebab lelaki ok! Dan jangan sesekali bagi lelaki pijak kepala kau! Ingat pesan aku ni…”
Mel cuma mengangguk. Memang dia setuju dengan kata-kata Nia yang terakhir itu.
Dan bagi Nia pula,
This is life... Whether you want it or not, you have to face it!
Dan mereka terus berlalu meninggalkan shopping mall itu.



“Hey~” Lee mendepangkan tangannya ke arah Nia, “Come..I nak hug You..Rindu sangat rasanya!” Lee tersenyum.
Dan Nia pula cuma tersenyum sinis. Rindu? Heh! Iyelah tu! Dasar lelaki mulut madu!
“Yeah! I miss You too, sayang!” Nia memeluk Lee, berpura-pura gembira.
“Semalam you langsung tak jumpa I kan?” Lee membuat muka sedih, memandang Nia.
Memang lah aku tak jumpa kau! Dah kau sibuk dengan betina lain! Bodoh! Pandai berpura-pura!
“Nia, I really miss You.”
“Eh, boleh tolong jangan cakap macam tu lagi tak?”
Akhirnya, kesabaran Nia meletus. Benci pula dia melihat lakonan Lee di hadapannya. Tolonglah hentikan!
“Laa...kenapa pulak ni?” Lee sendiri terkejut melihat reaksi Nia. Datang bulan kot?
“You ingat I ni macam perempuan-perempuan You yang lain ke? Jijik tau I dengar!”
“Ni apa hal pulak ni? Perempuan apa? I manade perempuan lain selain You!” Lee pula naik berang di tuduh melulu. Apa hal pulak si Nia ni? Nak cari pasal ke?
Nia tersenyum sinis lagi. Dipandangnya mata Lee dalam-dalam. Memang dasar lelaki penipu! Aku benci melihat kebodohan kau sekarang!
“Betul You takde perempuan lain?” Nia memancing lagi. Di pegangnya tangan Lee lembut.
“Betul...” laju je Lee menjawab. Begitu meyakinkan!
“Sumpah sekarang!” Nia tak berpuas hati melihat lakonan Lee saat ini. Oh God!
“Apesal plak nak bersumpah-sumpah ni?”
“Oh! Sejak bila plak You tak berani bersumpah? Is This Lee that I know?”
“Nia, what’s wrong with you?”
“I nak You bersumpah sekarang yang You takde perempuan lain! Kalau lah I dekat tempat You sekarang, bukan main memaksa lagi You suruh I bersumpah kan? Apa hal You tak berani pulak tiba-tiba ni?”
Lee malas nak layan. Dia terus berlalu. Memang kalau dia terus bertekak dengan Nia, confirm dia akan kalah kali ni. Nia macam tau-tau je. Tapi, betul ke Nia tahu? Entah...Lee sendiri tidak pasti.



Habis sahaja kerja, Nia terus pulang ke rumah. Sampai sahaja dirumah, dilihatnya Mel sudah sampai dahulu.
“Awal balik hari ni?” Nia menyapa. Mel leka menonton tv.
“Aku amik half day la..MC..tak larat! Period pain la Nia...”
“Pulak...patut la. Selalu kalau tak pukul sebelas malam, jangan harap la kau nak balik rumah, kan?”
Mereka tertawa. Memang begitu lah Mel. Selalu sahaja overtime. Kalau tak pun, dia mesti melepak dengan boyfriend dia dulu. Nia dah paham sangat.
“Kau dah makan?” Mel bertanya. “Kalau belum, tu aku ada masak sambal telur favourite kau. Pergilah makan.”
“Sambal telur? Wow! Bestnya kau ni!” Nia tersenyum riang seraya berlalu ke dapur. “Ni yang buat aku sayang kat kau ni!” kedengaran suara Nia menjerit dari dapur. Seketika Nia kembali dengan sepinggan nasi lalu duduk di sofa menonton tv bersama Mel.
“Ha! Sebelum aku terlupa, tadi ada surat untuk kau. Tu ada atas meja.” Mel teringat akan surat untuk Nia yang diambilnya tengah hari tadi di peti surat mereka.
“Dari siapa?” Pelik pula Nia. Siapa pula yang bagi dia surat? “Surat rasmi ke?”
“Bukan. Entah, aku pun tak tau dari siapa. Tapi kalau tak silap dari oversea.”
“Dari oversea? Ai..makin pelik pulak aku..siapa?”
“Aku agak je la...sebab setem dia cop Brisbane. Jap aku amik!?”
Mel terus berlalu ke meja mengambil surat yang dimaksudkannya. “Ni ha..”
“Bukak kan! Bukak kan! Tolong...” Nia tersengih-sengih sambil menyuap nasi ke mulutnya.
“Ha, dah...aku baca kan ye!”

Kehadapan Rania Elzra yang diingati,
Terlebih dahulu, maafkan saya jika kehadiran surat ini mengganggu kehidupan Nia pada ketika ini. Sudah agak lama kita tidak berjumpa. Saya disini tertanya-tanya jika Nia masih mengingati saya lagi atau tidak.
Apa khabar Nia sekarang? Masih belajar lagi atau sudah pun bekerja? Untuk pengetahuan Nia, saya bakal menamatkan pengajian saya pada akhir bulan hadapan. insyaAllah saya akan kembali ke Malaysia tidak lama lagi. Saya harap sangat agar Nia sudi berjumpa saya nanti.
Tiga tahun saya meninggalkan Malaysia. Saya percaya telah banyak yang berubah dalam tempoh ini. Bagaimana pula dengan Nia disana? Sudah berkahwin kah?

“Kenapa kelakar sangat kawan kau ni?” Mel tergelak-gelak membaca surat itu. “Ayat semua tak boleh blah... memang ikut format bahasa melayu betul!” Mel tertawa lagi.
“Tu la pasal... aku pun terkejut entah apa mimpi dia pos surat ni kat aku. Bukan tak boleh kasi email..kan senang..”
“Dia nak guna cara tradisional lah tu...Eh dah lah, malas aku nak baca!” Mel melipat semula surat tersebut. “Ni siapa, Nia?”
“Eddy...kawan lama aku masa kat UiTM dulu.”
“Kawan ke ex boyfriend? Haa..baik kau cakap!”
“Erm..teman tapi mesra..kot?” Nia tergelak. “Kawan la..tapi dulu dia ada gak approach aku jadi makwe dia, tapi sampai sekarang aku tak bagi jawapan.”
“Pulak..kenapa? tak hensem ke dia?” Mel seakan berminat untuk mengetahu kisah Nia dizaman kampus nya dahulu.
“Orang nya bagi aku hensem la..tapi aku tak terima dia sebab time tu dia dah nak further study abroad, aku takut kene tinggal..tula aku tak terima dia.. Alaa, cerita lama la.. dah takde makna pun..” Nia bangun dan berlalu ke dapur.
“Hey! You've got his picture?” Mel menjerit dari ruang tamu.
“Nak buat apa?”
“I thought I wanna see it! Manalah tau, kot-kot aku boleh buat boyfriend pulak!” Mel bergurau dan tertawa.
“Ah! Mengada lah kau! Abis Haris kau nak campak mana?”
“Alaa..aku gurau je la... Kau ni..”


(to be continued...)

Cane?? oke ke x oke?? comment pls..pls.. ^_^

Till then,
Take care guys..

Jeles...kenapa?

Salam and great day,

Syerra selongkar lagi skali old notes and found this one... Haish!~ =.= and sekali lagi???



jeles....kenapa?

sbb bila tgk org lain mcm tu n kenang kan balik diri aku mcm ni....

then...

start wondering...

knp aku x mcm tu?

n start talking....

"nak mcm tu jgk....."

jeles....knp?

sbb bila aku x dpt ape yg org lain dpt...

x kira dalam ape2 hal pon...bende ke...perasaan ke...

then...

start to have feeling like this...

"sedihnyeee...." bile mengenang balik kat diri aku yg mcm ni and dorg yg mcm tu....

jeles...knp?

sbb semua org ade boundary....n bila kita x bole nk lepas boundary tu...

that limit...

then start to....

sigh~

jeles...knp?

aku dpt ape yg aku nak...tp x sesempurna mana...

bila dpt yg sempurna...xnak bersyukur....

jeles...knp?

xtau la....

:(

hurmmmm......


when i'm wondering why....

Till then,
Take care guys.

Kawan...Jangan bersedih

Salam and great day...


kawanku...


Hidup kite ni x slalunye indah, sperti laut yg x slalunye tenang dan hari2 yg blalu x slalunye cerah...namun walau bagaimanapun susahnya hidup kite ni,walau bergelora hebatnya laut dan mendungnya hari2 yg kita lalui, ingat lah bhwa ianya bukanlah pencacat diari kehidupan kita...setiap yg blaku dan ape yg kite lalui itu ade hikmahnya.. Ade cerita di sebaliknya.. Tuhan xkan menjadikan sesuatu perkara itu klu xde sebabnya... =) kite perlu bersedia menghadapinya dan mencari maknanya spya kite sentiasa igt kpd Yang Maha Kuasa...

Kite perlu sedar dan yakin dlm ape jua situasi pun bhwa Allah itu sentiasa ade bersama kite...hanya kite sdri yg kdg kala menjauhkan diri dan melupakan Allah swt...mungkin ade masenye kite terleka dgn sepoi2 angin bahagia dunia yg cuma sementara ni...atau mungkin kdg2 kite brade di puncak kebimbangan yg tlalu hampir dgn gaung kegagalan dan kekecewaan...ini yg slalunye membuatkan kite jauh drpd Allah dan akhirnya dilanda kesedihan...tlalu bahagia @ tlalu senang akn membuat kite mudah tlena, tlalu sedih @ kecewa jgk akn membuat kite mudah tbabas ke lorong yg suram....
kawanku,

jadi dgn itu hiburkanlah hati dan tenangkan lah fikiran...warnai hidup ini dgn bunga2 senyuman, dinginkanlah hati dgn salju ketabahan, wangikanlah suasana dgn renjisan kesabaran dan indahkan lah lg dgn sentuhan keimanan...hidup ini akan lebih bmakne dan diri kite akn lebih bharga...ini akn memastikan bhwa usia yg blalu stiap saat itu x sia2...

Jangan bersedih....mungkin itu lafaz yg amat mudah dan ringkas, tetapi makna dan jiwanya besar...

Mungkin aku bkn yg tbaik dlm menasihati kwn...tp sbg kawan, aku mahu amik berat psl seseorang yg dipanggil kawan...

Jadi wlu ape pun yg blaku,kite tetap kawan...igt tu...



Ikhlas,
Syerra @ Youra Syasya


Till then,
Take care guys.

Tuesday 23 August 2011

part of loving is learning to let go...

Salam and great day...

First of all, Syerra nak bagitau yang syerra ni cepat bosan...especially main tarik-tarik tali ni...kalo dedua pon nak menang, HAH AMIK!~ biar kau je lah maen sensorang.. I quit!~ Buang masa tau bila langsung tak nampak bila maen tarik tali ni nak habis...seminit-2 minit, okey lagi la..klu da sampai sebulan-2bulan x abes2 lagi, ape cite?? hah, kau maen lah sorang2!~ nak sangat menang kan? AMIK! AMIK SEMUANYA!!~ puas hati?

HOH!~ mcm marah sangat he bunyinye..kan? tak marah...tak ada guna nya marah...cuma tersentap sikit!~ NAK, CAKAP NAK! XNAK, CAKAP XNAK! senang...jgn bazir masa, buang tenaga, buang air mata...apa susah sangat? Fed up tau! Syerra pon ade perasaan jugak! Syerra bukannya batu, bukan kayu!~ Syerra adalah Syerra! manusia oke!~ manusia!~ Ade hati, ade perasan! kau bukan binatang, sampai x boleh nak paham!~ betul? 

Kalau kau taknak, kenapa layan macam kau nak?! Kalau taknak, bagitau taknak! tak payah bagi harapan! Dengan Syerra senang je, once I feel bored, and I feel wanna quit, lantak kau lah lepas tu kau nak buat ape!~ Memang Syerra tak peduli dah! CLEAR?  Benda ada depan mata xnak, bila dah takde baru nak tercari2...ape jadah macam tu? Bila dah dinasihat elok2 tanak dengar! konon bajet EGO! hati keras la konon!~ Lepastu, bila da hilang, dah tadek depan mata baru menanges2 nyesal x sudah! tak ke bodoh namenye?? *tampar muka sendiri kuat-kuat!* (macam tuju untuk diri sendiri je... =.= haish!~)

 ^_^

Apa perasaan korang bila baca yang Syerra highlight kan wanra merah tu? ^_^ mesti tertanya-tanya kan what happened? what happened? apasal macam marah sangat je? kan? kan? Mesti laju je mata korang baca... ^_^

Well, itu adalah apa yang pernah Syerra alami suatu ketika dulu... Biasala time mula-mula nak kapel, budak-budak baru nak up, mcm tu la!~ Eceyh!~ =P suka sangat main tarik tali... Tapi diakui, memang part tarik tali ni la part yang best skali dalam permulaan percintaan..betul? The process of gaining something in common...maksudnya proses mencari sesuatu yang sama..of course la perasaan korang!~ bila sebut main tarik tali, ada ke main tarik tali sensorang?? =.= takde kan? that's mean two person attach to a string known as 'a feeling'...

Entry kali ni Syerra nak menulis pasal 'Part of loving is learning to let go'...Pernah dengar tak ayat ni:

Dare to love someone means Dare to lose them....

Apakah pulak maksudnya? Dah kalau kita sayangkan seseorang, kenapa pulak kita nak lepaskan mereka...betul? owh!~  tu SELF ORIENTED namenye!~ jangaaaannn...!!~ bahasa mudah, kita panggil SELFISH!~ it is not nice tau...Tapi actually kena tengok keadaan jugak la...if kita sayangkan dia, dan dia pon sayang kan kita, jadi itu berbaloi untuk kita tidak lepaskan mereka...

But sometimes, it does turn to the other way round...Pernah lihat atau alami sendiri tak dimana sorang suka, tapi sorang lagi tak suka? If korang ada hati kat someone tu, tapi dia takde hati kat korang, apa yang korang akan buat? Paksa dia terima korang sampai dia terpaksa terima?? macam tu ke?? Jangaannn.... Itu sangat selfish oke!~ try to be PEOPLE ORIENTED...bahasa mudahnya, meletakkan diri kita ditempatnya...

Cinta tak boleh dipaksa-paksa okay...Macam mana kita boleh cakap kita cintakan seseorang tu bila kita cuma pentingkan diri kita sendiri tanpa memikirkan perasaan dia?? Haa, this is my point for this entry actually... ^_^ Dare to love someones means dare to lose them...The part of loving is learning to let go...Apa maksudnya? Pernah dengar dalam drama tak, kalau betul kita cintakan seseorang, kita mesti nak kan yang terbaik untuknya...Actually, HELL NO that is not drama! That's the truth of loving someone...Kalau kita cintakan seseorang, kita mestilah berani melepaskan dia...Rules of Love, it can't be forced!~ It comes naturally...So, kalau kita cintakan dia, tapi kita teramat tahu dia tak cintakan kita, untuk apa kita simpan dia bila kita tahu dia takkan bahagia dengan kita? Itulah maksud ayat 'dare to lose them'...melepaskan mereka kepada kebahagiaan mereka sendiri...Believe it or not, kalau betul kita ikhlas cintakan seseorang itu, hati kita takkan sakit, sebaliknya hati kita akan gembira bila kita sendiri melihat orang yang kita cintai bahagia...Well, I can said that MAYBE tak semua orang akan berpendapat macam ni, but at least I DID!~ I even experienced it!~ So, I stress it here that I wrote it based on what I felt...

Tapi, if korang yaking and tahu sangat-sangat yang dia pun memang berperasaan yang sama macam korang, then DO NOT LET THEM GO!!~ Pertahankan hubungan korang!!~ Sebab cinta terjadi dengan indah bila kedua-dua pihak mempunyai perasaan yang sama terhadap satu sama lain!!~

According to what I've read on  'The Rule of Love; a personal code for happier, more fulfilling relationships'; it stated that love matters, whether it’s the romantic kind or the emotional bond between you and family or friends. Indeed latest research suggests that those who love and are loved are significantly more likely to be alive in 10 years time than those without love in their lives. See...Betapa bagusnya orang yang menyayangi dan disayangi ni...Jangka hayat lebih lama berbanding orang yang kurang kasih sayang!~ 

But it isn’t always easy to love and be loved. Everyone has at least one relationship that needs work - a partner, sibling, child, friend; because love is also complicated and relationships need to be attended to, nurtured, worked at, and invested in. It is however all too easy to neglect relationships – often without realizing it – and this benign neglect leaves you one day wondering why this special relationship has crumbled, unravelled, waned or lost its sparkle. Haaa...pernah jadi macam ni tak? Tetiba satu hari kita tertanya-tanya balik apa yang membuatkan hubungan yang dulunya rapat sangat, tetiba jadi renggang...padahal tak gaduh pon...It just that macam masing-masing tiba-tiba bawak haluan masing-masing without saying any...  

People who are good at relationships don’t posses some magical power. They have simply worked out what is important and where they need to focus their efforts. They know The Rules of Love.There are 100 Rules split into 6 sections:

1. Rules for Finding Love
2. Relationship Rules
3. Rules for Parting
4. Family Rules
5. Friendship Rules
6. Rules for Everyone

These rules offer common sense, wise and sometimes wryly witty advice for everyone, whether you want to have a better romantic relationship, patch things up with a family member, handle a break up well or have a great swith your kids. It is very good to at least know what are these rules...Because maybe you can adapt it into your life... 

Nak tau one thing yang lari sikit dari title entry ni? Syerra suka and langsung tidak menyesal amik Course Public Relations ni because it taught you about people!~ Seriusly, my eyes has wide opened  after I learned so many things about people in class...PR people are the observers!~ So, sesapa yang nak amik degree tu, amik la PR!!~ ^_^ Yay!!~ nanti kita bole gang jadik spinners sesama!!~ ^_^ 

Okey now back to this title of the entry...Adat dan lumrah hidup manusia, jodoh pertemuan semua di tangan tuhan, kan? In any relationship, not necessary love relationship, kita MESTI belajar MENERIMA melepaskan sesuatu... More to say that we are REDHA...pasrah dengan ketentuan macam tu la..TAPI...haa, still ada tapi oke!~ Tapi, itu x bermakna kita give up and menyerah kalah!~ NO!!~ Don't always bear that in your mind!~ Well hello!~ It's not the end of the world yet, right?? why I'm saying this, because I believe that: 

A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It's just his way of letting you realize he saved you from the wrong one... 


Jadi jangan tutup pintu hati kita...Sebab Tuhan tak jadikan sesuatu perkara itu kalau takde sebab...Setiap yang terjadi mesti ada hikmahnya...Kalau dia bukan ditakdirkan dengan kita, maknanya dia tak sesuai dengan kita, dan mungkin ada lagi yang lebih baik untuk kita dari dia...Tapi, bila kena kat batang hidung Syerra sendiri, lain plak yang Syerra fikir...kawan-kawan semua cakap macam tu, dia x bagus untuk kau, kau berhak dapat yang lagi bagus dari dia! And my mind pulak pikir macam ni 'itu kalau dia x bagus untuk aku, tapi macam mana pulak kalau AKU YANG TAK BAGUS UNTUK DIA?? huwaa..mesti dia dapat yang lagi bagus dari aku..Owh! Sungguh tak dapat terima kalau macam tu!  Ketepek!!~ kene sekeh dengan kawan!~ =.= Apa boleh buat, fikiran manusia ni kadang-kadang terlampau rumit, kita suruh dia fikir macam ni, dia pulak pusing pergi fikir ikut lain...kan? kan? kan? hurmm....


Syerra nak share my old notes here....some of the paragraph there sound like this:


...apa guna aku sanggup berkorban untuk kau, tapi kau pula sebaliknya?? Berbaloi?? Berbaloi bersusah payah untuk orang lain, sedangkan bila kita susah, orang lain tak pedulikan kita pun!

Orang selalu cakap,"Jangan pergi pada orang yang kita cintai, sebaliknya pergilah kepada orang yang mencintai kita..."

Betul kata-kata tu..kerana orang yang kita cintai seringkali menyakiti hati kita...berbanding dengan orang yang mencintai kita,mereka sentiasa berusaha memenangi hati kita..

Tapi hakikatnya, kita seringkali mengabaikan orang yang mencintai kita...malah berusaha pula mendekati orang yang kita cintai...


Betul kan? This is the fact of life...kita biasa nak pergi kepada orang yang kita cintai berbanding dengan orang yang mencintai kita...kalau dua-dua mencintai satu sama lain, then its really great!!~ but sometimes, sorang suka, sorang tak suka...aacane pulak tu? dah confirm2 kita takkan pergi pada orang yang kita tak cinta...betul? Rule of Love, remember, CINTA TAK BOLEH DIPAKSA-PAKSA...Kalau orang tu tak suka kita, kita x boleh paksa diri dia menerima diri kita...So in many situation, try to be PEOPLE ORIENTED...put yourself in their shoes...Insyaallah, kita akan lebih memahami diorang...Learning to let go bermaksud kita BELAJAR untuk melepaskan...Sebab tak semua benda di muka bumi ini kekal milik kita...that is why, sebahagian dari percintaan adalah belajar untuk melepaskan....itu menunjukkan kita masih punya rasa hormat, kita masih ada perasaan dan kita tidak mementingkan diri kita semata-mata... Kerana apa? Kerana hukum karma, dimana Allah swt sendiri ada menyebut didalam firmannya:
 
Firman Allah S.W.T:

"Maka barangsiapa yang beramal (dengan amal yang baik) walaupun sebesar zarrah (atom) akan dibalas kebaikan baginya dan barangsiapa yang beramal (dengan amal yang jahat) walaupun sebesar zarrah (atom) akan dibalas dengan kejahatan (dosa)." [Al-Zalzalah: 7-8]
  
 
In a simple words, WHAT U GIVE, U WILL GET BACK...Renung-renungkan lah kembali segala apa yang pernah kita lakukan...Kenapa sesuatu perkara itu terjadi pada kita? Mungkin sebelum ini kita pernah buat macam tu pada orang lain, now kita sendiri dapat rasa apa yang orang tu pernah rasakan....CUKUP ADIL kan? *tampar muka sendiri laju-laju jugak!~* Cara-cara untuk menenangkan kita daripada menerima balasan-balasan macam tu, adalah dengan redha, pasrah, tawakal dan bertaubat...Jangan simpan dendam di dalam hati, kerana itu cuma akan memakan diri kita sendiri...Sebaliknya, belajarlah menerima segala ketentuan Tuhan itu dengan redha...Insyaallah, kita akan beroleh sedikit ketenangan... Okey, sekarang da boleh tuka profession jadik ustazah plak... =.=
 
**A GIRL AND GUY CAN BE JUST FRIEND...BUT AT ONE POINT THEY WILL FALL FOR EACH OTHER. MAYBE TEMPORARILY, MAYBE AT THE WRONG TIME, MAYBE TOO LATE, OR MAYBE FOREVER...**

Syerra bukan cuba menjadi LOVE GURUs plak okey kat sini... =.= Syerra just berkongsi pendapat dan pengalaman Syerra. So, kepada sesiapa yang baca entry ni and diorang terasa atau tersentap tu, Syerra minta maaf banyak-banyak..Sebab yang baik itu datang daripada Allah Swt, dan yang buruk itu datang dari Syerra sendiri... =)

Till then,
Take care guys!~

Monday 22 August 2011

It's Once Again...

Salam and great day,

I just wanna share this to you guys... ^_^



a day is so slow and so hard
because even when i try to show you all my heart
you cannot see
i just blame the time that has passed
even though the season changes once again
i still remain sad.
One more time
although it hurts, I should have loved just a little more
i will laugh only for you and cry only for you
one more time
like that fiery sun in the sky
I will love all of you and only you, forever
one more time
i miss your sweet face under the umbrella
even though i wipe these tears
i still remain sad
one more time
although it hurts, I should have loved just a little more
i will laugh only for you and cry only for you
one more time
like the twinkling stars in the night sky
I will love all of you and only you, forever
one more time
Promise that we will share an identical tomorrow
Promise that we will share an identical happiness
always by your side
one more time
although it hurts, I should have loved just a little more
i will laugh only for you and cry only for you
one more time
like that fiery sun in the sky
I will love all of you and only you, forever
one more time
oh my love for you
one more time

I've got this one from my friend when I'm doing my blog walking...It is nice to hear it, and I love to read it... ^_^ I wonder when my heart will go sha la la again?~ Is there any possibility?? Hurmm..maybe not..and maybe yes?? who knows?? Only God know when... ^_^

Till then,
Take care guys...

Sunday 21 August 2011

Dear YOU....

Salam and great day...


Today, I wrote this entry just for YOU...Yes! Yes!~ YOU!~ ^_^ and I know right now you are reading it... 

okay, nothing much I cay say besides my THANXILLION towards you for such a great moment I had with you yesterday!~ I'm so happy okay!~ Yay!~

U fetched me after I finished my works, then we had a fast breaking. What a nice breaking moment I had...you cooked fried rice and fried chicken for me!~ Owh how sweet is that!~ Because I can sure of that it was so rare when a guy cooked for me!~ It was cute btw!~ ^_^ kalo kita bercinta ni, I da ckp yg u romantik!~ hahah!~ =P luckily that u are my friend.... ^_^

While eating, we had our football match watching... Liverpool vs Arsenal...I've told you before that I hope I can watch football match together with you... Finally yesterday you made it come true!~ OMG!~ Double YAY!!~ ^_^ we're both support Liverpool..and hell yeah Liverpool won that game by 2-0 to Arsenal!~ Congrats Liverpool!!~ ^_^ The best part here is when you gave me your Liverpool jersey, same color with what the team wore during that match!~ Its grey in color and tripple YAY!~ I've got my 1st jersey!!~  ^_^ Thanks again YOU!~ Bayeknye awak nii...^_^ Okay, I'm melting enough now to make me drowning... hahaha!~ =P  JOKING!~ =)

After finished that match, we went to The Mines lake...Owh!~ Here was also the great moment I had when I've got a chance to ride a JETSKI!!~ yes! yes!~ I've told you before that I wish we can ride a jetski together someday...and now, you'r fulfilling it!!~ Oh MY!~ ^_^ Tapi saya pembonceng je la..sebab YOU yang bawak..~ Still, I enjoyed it soooo much!!~ Riding jetski at night?? HOH!~ ^_^angin sejuk oke!~ tapi best sebab rambut terbang-terbang! YOU fulfilled many of my request tonight!~ YOU such a nice guy...I can sure that!~ And I'm so lucky to have you as my friend...

DONE!~ Dah banyak sangat permintaan I yang u tunaikan... Dan I pun tak sangka yang u tunaikan betol-betol!~ ^_^ How lucky I am!~

I still remember your words when you remind me this "kena berkawan jangan cepat cair k.."  =) And I tell you what, I'm not MELTING laa...It just that I'm APPRECIATING.... ^_^ Yeah you right when you say that  jodoh tu semua kat tangan tuhan... ^_^

Dear YOU,
U'd promised me right, that u'll never leave me alone... Legaa... Will you be my friend forever? because as I told you, I really hope that our friendship can last forever...It is much more safe this way... Apa yang safe I pon tatau la.. hahaha!~ =P


Dear YOU,
I'll whisper one thing to your ear... ^_^ nanti tunggu k I bagi tau... ^_^

Okay!~ Now DONE all that story, focusing on what I'm gonna said here...


Dear YOU,
Honestly, I am very happy to know you...
I am very happy when we spent time together...
Because I do admit that I loves your humor...
And honestly too,
I feel very comfortable when I'm with you,
I don't know how to explain it further,
But I know and I am confident with myself
that I can be a good friend to you...
I promised that...
Once I promised, I'll make sure that I'll do it..
So, you can count on me for that...
Dear YOU,
Thank you so much again and again
for the joy and happiness u'd bring to my life,
Dah lama sangat tak rasa macam ni agaknya... =P
 I really appreciate it,
Although u might say that it just nothing,
Its simple thing for you,
But for me,
It is something!~
Something that I would never forget!~
Something that I would remember till my last day of my life!~
You are such a nice guy,
And again, Thank you for being my friend....
^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

Till then, 
Take Care...





Thursday 18 August 2011

BFF...

Salam and great day,

Nothing much to say today, but I wanna thanks to all my BFF, girls and boys...Thank to all of you for always supporting me and make me happy, cheer me up when I'm down, lend your shoulder when I need it the most, wipe my tears when it flow like a river, and thank you for always there for me....I would never find a good and true friends like you guys...LOVE YOU!~

Tonight, when I'm sitting all alone in my room, I suddenly remembered this old friend. I couldn't stop myself from think about the moment we were together. Its like a flash back, so fast get through my internal memory and with blink of an eyes, it appears like a huge screen in front of my eyes...Playing all the scenes of me with them who were known as friends...You were there when I was sad and happy...And for me, it is soooo precious memories to be remembered because I know the value is too high till reach infinity...

I've got a lil poem here...Dedicated to someone I called as F.R.I.E.N.D....my long lost friend...


Dear friend,
I've missed you for sure by now,
I've missed you that always be my supportive friend,
I've missed your concern and caring towards me,
I've missed your voice that used to give me some courage,
I've  missed your hugs that used to calm me down,
I've missed your eyes that used to give me trust,
I've missed your laugh that used to make me happy,
I've missed your own way that used to attract me,
I've missed to share again,anything and everything with you,
I've missed the time we were together,
I've missed to meet you again,
I've missed to pass it once again with you,
I've missed to make you happy as well,
I've missed how's concern I could be towards you,
I've missed to be your close friend again,
I've missed you were there when my world turned upside down,
and the most important,
I've missed the old us...


It did bring me into something tonight...It did leave something somewhere deep in my heart and also my mind... I've gone through for 1 years timing revising and reading all the wall post and comments by checking the 'see friendship' between me and this friend...From the very beginning until now... 

Beautiful memories....
A good ones to be remembered....

I always wondered what makes two good friend suddenly become so distant? If I asked that question to my ownself, I absolutely have the answers... Can be said that I regret it... And no doubt, I wanna change it if I could turn back the time be in that moment. Unfortunately, PAST IS PAST... We CANT turned back the time...

EGO...

That's the suitable words for us...We were very good at supporting each other, but don't know why we were bad at confession our true feeling towards each other..And beautiful friendship that MAYBE can turned into beautiful love, had suddenly been wasted just like that... 

SAD! 

We're regretting  it but nothing much we can do...

My beautiful friendship,
I've missed you the most,
Honesty and loyalty always there,
Make it delicious to be taste
And not good to be waste...
Such a beautiful friendship,
It will never dies
as it will always grows in our heart,
Coz I will always take care of it,
And make sure that it will always in good.
I love you beautiful friend,
I missed you beautiful friendship,
And I'll not forget those beautiful heart,
Past, now and forever...
Remains unchanged...

Thanks for being a friend with whom I can...Share my troubles...Express my happiness...And smile away every moment of my life with!~



It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because every thing's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are as you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now, we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye



I'm glad to have you as my friend...my dear long lost friend.. As I looked at our older conversation there, I know we've been such a good and supportive friend for each other...I've missed that moment for sure in my life...You always there giving me some courage and hope no matter what happened to me...you always put me at the first place in your priority list..I wana thanked you for that..Maybe before this, I didn't get the  chance to wish all this for you, but I really want to let you know, I'm so grateful to know you and to have you as a friend... How I wished to went through it once again...Thank you again for being my friend...May happiness be with you now and forever...Insya Allah, God bless you always... ;-)

Till then,
Take care...

Monday 15 August 2011

Freelance Writer... "KENANGAN SEMALAM'

Salam and great day....


Hi all...I just get this into my mind...I wanna be a freelance writer...I mean for sure because at least, I can fill my free time than doing nothing or wasting my time doing stupid thing...right? Besides, with this writing, I hope I can improve and polish my writing skills as well which I think that it is really good for me!~ So here is the some of my requirement...Hope you guys can help me in finding some ideas on what shall I write...It can be anything...Anything that you wanna find out, or you wanna know, or even maybe as your favorite reading... If not for me, hopefully maybe my writing can help and benefits you guys...Agree? So DO DROP ME your ideas to my fb : http://www.facebook.com/syerra.hamid okek!~ ^_^ I'm welcoming it so much!~



Okay, now we move to the topic for this entry 'Kenangan Semalam'...I'll write it in dwi bahasa, so that the words structure are well organized and easy to understand...Can? ^_^



Sebenarnya, entry kali ini telah dicadangkan oleh kawan Syerra, Fazlan Baharuddin (http://facebook.com/fazlanb). Akibat dek ketandusan idea dan perasaan yang semakin malas untuk mengupdate blog ni, so Syerra pun post la status kat FB mintak idea mereka. First respon, dari Fazlan Baharuddin ni. Beliau memberi idea tentang  Kenangan Semalam. Then I'd agreed, so I come to this entry... ^_^


So, apa yang dimaksudkan dengan kenangan semalam? Kenangan hari semalam ke, atau pun maksud tersiratnya kenangan lama yang tidak dapat kita lupakan? Well, it's depend la on apa yang terus korang semua terbayangkan. Sebab bila sebut kenangan semalam, mesti dalam kepala korang da terbayang perkara yang tidak dapat korang lupakan, betul? Mestilah kenangan semalam, takkan kenangan akan datang pulak...Itu belum jadi kenangan lagi tu...


Kenangan; Syerra define sendiri disini sebagai sesuatu yang telah terjadi kepada diri kita sendiri atau pun orang lain dan ianya merupakan sesuatu yang tidak dapat kita lupakan. Itu kata Syerra, tetapi, apa pula kata scholars? ^_^ In psychology, memory is an organism's ability to store, retain, and recall information and experiences. Ini maksudnya ingatan kita ye kawan-kawan. In a simple words, Kenangan adalah ingatan kita terhadap sesuatu perkara. Ianya adalah sesuatu yang telah memberikan kesan mendalam kepada diri kita.

I have a story on that... What I merely called as unforgettable memories...It is about someone that gave me much influences. Someone that gave me such a big impact to my life. Someone that I couldn't forget until today. Someone who is rare and different from others. Someone that could never been replaced.

He was my love...

WAS okay, bukan IS...That's why ianya adalah 'kenangan semalam' bagi Syerra...



Hurm..where should I start?

Well, as most of you guys know that I'm in line hair saloon now. Walaupun tak berapa hebat, tapi boleh lah at least dari orang lain yang langsung tidak tahu apa-apa pasal dunia salon rambut ni. Syerra bukannya hairstylist, cuma syampu girl je. Itu pun kerja part time. Part time pun, dah setahun 3 bulan Syerra kerja dengan Anggun Salon ni. My bos is very understanding person, and she is so good and very nice towards me. I'm happy I works for her. She is very tolerance, and kindhearted and she took care of all her staffs welfare. Beruntung sangat-sangat dapat kenal dia.

Bermulanya Syerra dengan bidang salon rambut ni adalah pada tahun 2009. It was on April, 25th of April I guessed, I don't quite remember of it. That was the first time I went to Le Anns Salon, Seksyen 7. I just finished my class, and together with Rahimah and Faizah, we went to hair salon because I wished to cut my hair due to split ends, damages and dried. Owh, kasihan rambut Syerra time tu. =.=


By this time, you guys can ask me why I like motocross so much? ^_^ I saw it there, outside at Le Anns Salon. It was black and orange in color. And I've wondered who's scrambler is that?

As I entered to the salon, there was only one guy, with long Blondy hair and he tied it up like Japanese style..wearing short and t-shirt (in black if I'm not mistaken) with red Crocs shoe.

"Ya, nak buat apa?" he asked me.

"I nak trim rambut I. Hujung-hujung dia dah bercabang sepuluh..." I replied.

"Boleh! Duduk lah.." He answered.

Then, Syerra pun duduk. Suddenly dia datang sambil bawa cutting cape and sarung kan kat badan Syerra.

"Eh, siapa nak gunting ni? You ke??" Seriously at that time, Syerra memang tak yakin langsung dengan dia. Syerra ni agak cerewet sikit kalau pilih hairstylist, dibuatnya nanti dia potong tak cantik or rambut jadi rosak, hah, macam mana?? Jangan weh! Rambut ni aset Syerra tau!

"Yelah, I lah..." Selamba dia jawab dengan muka pelik pandang Syerra. Memang takde orang lain pun time ni, dia seorang je yang jaga salon tu time ni, lagi dua orang staff pergi beli makanan.

"You hairstylist ke??" Muka dia pelik, muka Syerra ni lagi la berganda-ganda pelik! Time ni muka memang dah agak cuak sebab dalam hati asyik cakap 'habislah rambut aku rosak lepas ni!' >_<

"Yelah! Kenapa?? Tak caya?"

"Err...I thought you bukan pekerja sini... heheh.."

"Sebab I pkai simple sangat ye?"

And I just smiled. We started our conversation as he started to cut my hair. Sumpah memang Syerra tak percaya dia adalah seorang hairstylist time tu.

"Are you malay?" I asked. Tak tahu time ni Syerra asyik pandang dia je melalui cermin depan Syerra ni. Habis semua Syerra tilik! Sebab 100% can be said that he is not like a malay!

"Yes...Pure Malay. Kenapa?? Tak nampak macam melayu ye?"

"Haah. Kalau you cakap u chinese pun I percaya."

"Bukan chinese la..Chinese putih, I mana putih. Macam Chindian kan?" Dia tersenyum Yes! betul sangat lah tu! Memang macam Chindian!

"Yeah...betul tu! I tengok rambut you, macam Japanese-japanese and Chinese-chinese style! Bertocang mcm tu... Macam gangster pun ada!"

"Nampak ganas tak? Heheh..."

By that time, keserasian mula dirasai. What I can say is, DO NOT JUDGE PEOPLE BY ITS APPEARANCE!~ itu sangat betul. Sebab ternyata sangkaan Syerra pada dia masa mula-mula masuk tu sangat jauh dari sangkaan Syerra selepas bersembang-sembang dengan dia. He's nice!!~ ^_^



Then dari situ la Syerra mula kenal dia, dan kami jadi rapat in a very short while! After few week contacted through sms and call, he finally told me that he has some suprised for me. I wonder what was that? He was at his hometown at that moment. He asked me for a date because he wanted to show me something, then I agreed. When the time reached, he fetched me up at my house and we went to Seksyen 7 Pusat Komersial. He brought me to a shop. Like a new shop because I could see that it still under construction. He even has the key! What?? Jadi pekerja construction pulak ke apa?? He brought me in to that shop.

"Tadaa!!~" With smiled on his face. I still remembered that smile. "My new salon!"

"What...?" Syerra pula yang terkejut! Serius! Maksudnya apa ni? "Salon baru you? Habis, yang kat seksyen 7 tu? Bukan you kerja situ ke?"

"Yeap! Dulu I kerja situ, tapi now I dah berhenti dan sekarang, I nak bukak salon baru! Cantik tak salon I?"

"Maksud you, salon u sendiri??"

"Yelah! You ni apsal macam tak percaya-percaya je dari tadi? Pandang rendah dekat I ke apa??" Eh, sentap plak dia ni. Orang tanya je... =.=

"Alaa...I tanya je! Bukan ada maksud apa-apa pun. You ni...Tapi kan, hebat you ye!" Syerra senyum and berjalan-jalan dalam salon tu.

"You minat kerja salon tak?" He asked me.

"Macam mana nak minat? I tak pernah langsung kerja salon-salon ni. Bukannya I tau buat apa-apa pun."

"Syerra, you kerja dengan I nak? You kan nak cari kerja part time. Kerja salon lagi relax dari you kerja hotel tu." He suddenly offered me. What?? Betul ke ni??

"Serius?? Betul ke ni??"

"Yelah! Ingat I memain ke ape? You ni dari tadi asyik tak percaya-percaya je...Tertekan btol!"
Nilah salah satu sifat dia, panas baran. Cepat nak marah. =.= Tapi tak tahu kenapa Syerra boleh tahan dan tak pernah kesah pun pasal sifat dia ni. Its my kelebihan I guessed...

"Tapi, I tak tahu pasal kerja-kerja salon ni...Macam mana??" >_<

"I kan ada! Takpe, tu nanti semua I ajar you, okey?" Dia senyum. "Sekarang ni, I nak ajak you pergi Ikea Damansara, nak beli perabut2 untuk salon I. I nak you yang tolong pilihkan, okay?"

OMG! Syerra tolong pilihkan?? Dah macam Syerra pula yang nak bukak bisnes bila diberi keutamaan sampai macam tu sekali!Sumpah, Syerra rasa amat berbesar hati bila diberi penghargaan macam tu.

From that, we're finally opened that salon together. We worked together. Only me and him. Macam tak percaya, bila kami sama-sama bangunkan salon tu. Bila Syerra ingat balik, Syerra rasa sayu sangat-sangat!~ Sebab semua tu dah menjadi kenangan yang sampai mati pun Syerra takkan lupa.

From that, we've became so closed and finally we felt in love with each other. Sebenarnya, Syerra dah lama jatuh hati pada dia, tapi sebabkan Syerra rasa dia tak mungkin pilih Syerra yang takde apa-apa dan bukan  siapa-siapa ni kalau nak dibandingkan dengan dia. Macam langit dengan bumi! Serupa enggang dengan pipit! Jauh sangat perbezaan kami. Tapi tak sangka dia dapat lihat sesuatu dalam diri Syerra. Sesuatu yang dia pandang lain, dan tak sama macam perempuan-perempuan yang dia kenal. KATA DIA LAH...

We shared same interest and hobby. Banyak yang dia ajar Syerra tentang dunia salon. From my knowledge ZERO until now dah tahu sikit-sikit! Sebabkan Syerra sayang dia, Syerra jadi semangat nak kenal diri dia. Semua benda yang dia minat, Syerra pun nak minat jugak! He's a motocross rider. He got his own  motocross club and now his own motocross track.That's why I felt in love with motocross jugak!~ ^_^


He proposed me to became his special girlfriend when he involved in motocross accident at Ulu Yam track, 13th June 2009. And 14th June 2009 was our special date to be declared as lovers. I couldn't forget that moment. Because that was the best part of my life ever. While on the way back from Hospital Selayang, after he has been discharged from ward, riding Adam's FWD, (his friend) he text me and said that He love me more than his life and thank you for not leaving him when he involved with that crash. I cant hold my tears while I'm writing this because I still remember the moment his motocross got crashed after he did the jump at the table top. I've got so shocked because I was recording his action by my hp and suddenly lompatan motocross dia tu tak selamat! Dia jatuh! Motorcross dia patah dua!~ I saw him terbaring dengan debu-debu yang memenuhi tempat dia. I was panic and for a while I couldn't say anything and my feet was look like I was nailed to the ground! Several girls there were also screaming. Budak-budak motocross yang lain-lain dah berlari-lari mendapatkan dia. And in a short while, dia dikerumuni dengan orang ramai. I could hear they screamed my name, they called me...I ran to him and saw him terbaring... OMG!! Semua panic, tak tahu nak buat apa! Dorang nak gerakkan dia, tapi Syerra tak bagi! Takot dia ada patah-patah ke...Bahaya! He was bleeding and luckily I still have my PBSM knowledges with me. Finally they hold him to Adam's FWD and decided to bring him to Hospital Selayang. He called my name and asked me don't leave him. ='(  We've been escorted by all the riders and alhamdulillah, traffic jammed could be controlled and it was like all the road users giving us a way to pass by. While on the way to hospital, he said that his sight is getting blur and he asked Yeop to recited azan for him. I recited ayat kursi, and al-fatihah to his ears so that dia tak lupa Allah. Yeop ajar dia mengucap...

Sampai di hospital, dia diusung dengan stretcher masuk wad kecemasan. Syerra tak boleh masuk. Risau sangat time ni. Syerra pegang semua barang-barang kepunyaan dia. Hp dia jangan cakap la, call and sms tak berhenti-henti. Syerra curi-curi baca, and IT DID HURT ME SO MUCH! but I don't care much about it...Bila keadaan dah redha, Doctor pun dah sahkan yang dia okay takde apa-apa, barulah semua orang rasa lega. Nasib baik dia pakai semua safety before ride motocross tu. Kalau tak, haish...tak tahu lah nak cakap macam mana...

Time dalam ward, dia admit something dengan Syerra. Time ni rasa nak menangis sangat-sangat, sebab rasa macam dah kalah. T_T  then I said, its okay...Don't think about it too much, we still can be friend. But he hold my hand and said that he don't want to be friend, he wants me to stay beside him and hope that I can take care of him...

Too much memories to be put here in this entry. Silap-silap orang pun tak sanggup nak baca!~ =P If I wanna story about this, 1 novel pun Syerra sanggup tulis tau! Because I'm the type who will appreciate much things that I loved and liked. It is too much valuable for me. I'm the type who will not forget things easily.

Kenangan semalam...kenangan yang banyak mengajar Syerra tentang kehidupan ...Kenangan yang banyak membuka mata Syerra terhadap banyak perkara. He is RARE! No one can ever replaced him in my heart untill now. Dia sentiasa segar dalam ingatan Syerra. Segala apa yang kami lakukan bersama-sama dahulu, jatuh bangkit and susah senang, semuanya masih terpahat kuat di ingatan dan hati Syerra. I'm glad that I have a strong memory! I'm so thankful and grateful because I still can recalled all this memories.

Whatever it is, though we're not together anymore, still, He was my best memories...

I know right now he already moved on with his life, but I'm here are still not moving mine. I don't know when it will be my time to move on with my life. Too many chances that I'd ignored. IDK!~ Maybe it's not the time for me yet... So I just prefer to live in this memories...At least, there's a strength  and courage that he left for me..

Actually, I did found someone, and I did fall in love once again, but maybe he's not the right person for me  yet after him...So, I just let it be and let the time decide...

Till then,
Wait for my next entry 'bakal suami / isteri'...maybe? ^_^

Take Care guys!~










Sunday 14 August 2011

FORGETTING ME...

Salam and great day...
This is one of my poem collection which I wrote by my own self...Check it out!~ ^_^



Hey, dear you...I'm asking you,
Are you forgetting me now?
Coz I look at the way you are,
Wasn't same like before...

Hey, dear you...I'm asking you,
Are you forgetting me now?
As I look at my handphone,
There's no call or sms returned by you...

Hey, dear you...I'm asking you,
Are you forgetting me now?
And I hate being like this,
To feels the taste being ignored...

Hey, dear you...I'm asking you,
Are you forgetting me now?
I don't want to stay like this,
Living in a dream without hope...

Owh...Though the star is shining,
My eyes still staring,
And I need to feeling,
Though I don't know how long it will showing...



Hope I can make a song... but I know that I'm not very good at it... HELP! Anybody? ^_^
till then,
take care y'all..!~ 
 

Thursday 11 August 2011

I'm feeling C.H.I.R.P.Y now...!~ ^_^

Salam and great day,

It is rare for me to get this chirpy feeling like this, at least at this moment...But I'm so grateful and thanks to God for giving me once again this chirpy feeling... I admit, I've lost it before... Maybe I dropped it somewhere, I don't know...But the truth is, it's missing!~ Missing from my hands... And so much I've tried it hard to find it back until now, finally, it is like I can see it once again...Although I can't touch it and keep it, but it is much more better because I can feel it...Somewhere in here, in my heart.... <3

 

 You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You feel like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you makes me weak.
There are no words left to speak,
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real.

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I love you, baby,

And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm the lonely nights.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:
Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby,
Now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, baby.
Let me love you.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
You feel like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.

I love you baby,
And if it's quite alright,
I need you, baby,
To warm the lonely nights.
I love you, baby.
Trust in me when I say:

Oh, pretty baby,
Don't bring me down, I pray.
Oh pretty baby,
Now that I found you stay
And let me love you, baby.

Let me love you...


If I had just 1 day with you, only 1 day...I will appreciate it very much...I will show you my love...I will treat u nicely..I will make you happy...I will cook for you...I will take care of you...I wanna hold your hands all day long...I will try my very best to be good for you, good in your eyes, good in your mind and your heart...

If I had just 1 day with you, I will be very grateful and so much I wanna thank God for giving me this golden opportunity to be with you... Just 1 day, that's all I need..not much...That's all I'm asking, just 1 day...and it will be enough for the rest of my life...At least, I can show u what i feel towards u...

Only 1 day, that's all I'm asking...so that I can know what does your heart wanna tell me...Whether or not it's gonna break my heart and torn it into pieces, I don't care!~ As long as I can get what I wanna know and what I need to know...

This is rare..for me this is very rare because I fall in love again...Once again in my life...Know what is that mean? Something valuable and precious for me... I've been missing it long time ago...I even give up to trust anybody...I even hope for him to come back where actually it is very clear hopeless and luckless...!~

But now, what I'm missing long time ago, is like appear in front of me...what I need to do is to get close with it...So that I can know whether the hole in my heart can be fixed or not...I've lost the key to open the cage in my heart...and I really hope that u don't bring me any key...because YOU ARE THE ONLY KEY that I have right now....Will u realize all this? or will u not?

1 day....that's all I need...


till then, tc...

Wednesday 10 August 2011

Salam and great day...

Nothing much to post this time...just my uncomfortable feeling playing around inside me... =.=


Do I have to look at it over and over again? And keep repeating it on the next day and everyday? Do I really have to care about all this? Why? Why I finally turned to the old me? Where is the new me that created by Daddy? Is not that I regret when I come back to the old me, but it is a pleasure when I finally can a little bit breathe…well at least, this is what I want for all this while…but the question is ‘do I really need this breathe?’…these ‘a little bit breathe’…? After what I’d been through all this while…do I deserve this? Well I don’t care much whether I deserve it or not…it is not important for me anymore… not any longer…

It’s been a while…to keep the feelings save with me…to just shut up and pretend that ‘Dude, I’m okay!’…where actually I’m much more suffered inside…am I going to tell the world that I regret all these? Nop! Never! Though sometimes the pain hurt too much, but this is the road that I chose… I will never turning back though actually there is much more thing that I can deserve for it...

People tends to believe what they want to believe… it is something that we hold tight…something that we will never let it go…something that we will set in mind…something that we try to make it real… to make it really happen… but, is it same between what we want to believe, and what we going to feel? Something that we want to believe, is not yet happen…so it lead us to make it happen…(the ‘believe’ to be happen) and something that we are going to feel, is something that we want to maintain it or to change it….So what I’m going to say here, we must feel it first before we can believe it!~ believe without feel is same like a looser…  how are you going to believe it if you don’t feel it?? Am I right? And yes, true to my words…


….sigh….

I don’t know what I’m up to now? What I’m thinking? And what have I done? Is it wrong or is it right? Is it selfish or not? Is it might hurt somebody else or not? Or is it might hurt my ownself? Am I not good enough to handle the situation or am I too good? And FUCK all that feeling… I’m the middle right now…

I must keep focus on myself…can’t think about others too much…must be a little selfish…that was what Daddy taught me since the first day I knew him…well, I do admit that sometimes what he said was true… but I’m only high my ego when the situation forced me to do so… 

the questions is: AM I TOO EGO? =.= u tell me!~

Tuesday 2 August 2011

Yogurt Fruit Punch....^_^

Salam and great day...

Alhamdulillah 2nd day puasa dah berlalu... ^_^ Syukur dapat selesaikan dengan sempurna..Walaupon byk dugaan, tapi seb baik iman masih kuat!~ So x heran pon dengan makanan2 yg ternampak depan mata tu... ^_^ heheh...

Hari ni Syerra nak kongsi simple resepi utk dessert...So kepada sesape yg xde mase nk buat resepi dessert yg rumit2 tu, ha bole try je resepi ni...Sangat mudah, n sangat senang n paling penting SANGAT SIHAT!!~ Nama dia YOGURT FRUIT PUNCH....Macam mana nk buat? Jom kite tengok cara-caranya!~ ^_^


Bahan-bahan yang diperlukan:


Ni je..Buah-buahan and Yogurt Set Asli. Fruits ni korang boleh pilih pape je fruits yg korang suka...x kesah!~ Kat sini Syerra pilih Epal, Lai and Pear...Sebab ni je yang ade kat umah time ni... ^_^ N yogurt plak, beli yogurt mcm ni, mmg yogurt yang khas untuk masakan....yogurt yang ni takde perisa, sbb dia mmg perisa asli, susu masam....

Seterusnya,


Haa lepas da basuh buah tu bersih2, potong kecik2....Kalo petang besar2 sangat, nnt orang takde gigi macam abah syerra, susah nak makan!~ So xpe, potong je kecik2... 
Disebabkan yogurt ni xde perisa, jadi Syerra buatkan perisa untuk dia... so Syerra amik 3 biji buah tu, and potong kecik, lalu BLEND sama yogurt and sedikit air. Da siap yogurt perisa 3 rasa...ni kita nak buat fruit punch kan? So make sure yogurt kite tu cair sedikit, tp jangan la cair sangat, buat yang sedang-sedang aje, oke? ^_^

Lepastu, bile da siap yogurt blend tu, and dah ade fruits yang dipotong kecik-kecik tu, kita mix kan dorg...Tuang je bancuhan yogurt tu ke atas fruits tu...


Letakla dalam mangkuk besar oke...Dah kate pon fruit punch kan? ^_^ ha tgk mcm dlm gambar tu....

Lepas tu, kacau  kasi sebati...


If nak sedap, korang tambahkan Nata De Coco oke!~ ^_^ Dalam ni pon mmg Syerra ada tambah nata de coco 2 kaler...Kalau xnak pon xpe...
Pastu, serve la dlm gelas dessert... ^_^ hiaslah dengan Whipped Cream...Sedaaaappppp..... ^_^


Da siap...!!!!~ ^_^ Senang kan? Owh lupe, kalau nak lagi best, simpan dalam peti sejuk, biarkan dia sejuk dlu sblm makan tu...
So, SELAMAT MENCUBA!!~

Till then,

Take care guys!~ ^_^