Monday 18 July 2011

Hate it!

I don't like people who go chase after me..But it is more to 'I go chase after people'...I just love the feeling of 'try harder' to get close with the people..and i guess, they feel the same way too!~
To a new friend whom I just get to know, carefull! Cause its always ended up with 'bye bye, people' when i noticed that they are so rushing and annoying me! huh, then again i guessed they must be had the same feeling to if i'm the ones who go and chase after them...BUT, only if they don't like me la...If they like me, that's totally a different story, right? I go chase after you, and you did the same too..right? =)

Life..life...

Millions of attitudes and behaviors...sometimes, we love it, sometimes we hate it and sometimes, we don't even care on it...right? Its up to us!

And for me, I did always turning to ignore them whom i felt that very so desperate! Kau dah ade makwe, buatlah cara dah ade makwe! Jangan nak menggatal macam :@) oke! Urghh! well, people, you see this, not all people u see that is okay, is OKAY!~ =) We can't judge them by their looks, right? Not untill you know them better...

It is not like that i'm so-bagus, but this is me..this is my game..if you want to enter and join it, then u have to follow my rules...so,what i'm saying here 'take it OR leave it'....simple, right? i don't force you..and don't force yourself too if you already knows that you CAN'T do it...why wasting your valuable own time if you don't have that much passion? Even if you have that PASSION, still, it means NOTHING if you don't take any action...right? so, THINK!

I can't sleep..and I keep mumbling myself..can't keep my mouth out of it.. Ouh, gosh! T_T

Why I always think it in a different ways? Why I always think it so complicated? and why are you people bothering me?!

Pfft..!~

What I want? What I need right now? What I'm thinking of?? There's always A thing! only 1 thing!  and always THAT thing! Not other thing... T_T

Myself...
My works...
HIM...

I hate it...I hate this part right here...

I know that I loves to go chase after people..but I can't denied that I hate Waiting!

the most i hate is I NEVER HATE WAITING for him...DAMN! sangat kasihan tau...

Letting go other people, just to be with him, just to get back with him and I don't know why I can't let go all this crappy thing and still standing here...

And like usual, there was always 1 single thing that could change my whole mind towards new relationship that I'm engaged with...HIM...that's why I'm afraid to accept people...Because I know that I'm not strong enough to let go all of the things I've gone through with him...There is nobody can pull me out of here...And I'm not strong enough to go out alone from this place...Cause I feel like this is the place where I belong...

No doubt, deep in my heart, I'm waiting for someone else to bring me out of here..But until now, there's nobody who succeed. They are not strong enough to take me out from here...And my feeling is too strong to not change compare to them!

It's not that I'm too choosy...

Pfftt...!~

I don't know what spells he used on me...Why this feeling is so strong? Why I can't let anyone else to enter my heart even when I'm single and available? Why its still locked when I've tried so damn hard to break the chain surrounding my heart? 

Where is the key?? Where is my key?? T_T And I guessed I don't have it! Its not with me...I couldn't find it here with me...Its with him...And I'm not so sure whether or not he still keep it safely with him? There is a possibility where he might lost it....or, he might throw it away. In that case, what I'm supposed to do then?? How can I open it without the key?? T_T malangnya....Ouh!

I'm afraid...

Afraid to be heartbreaker again..and again..Yes, I like them! but i'm not flirting! and I can't love them as much as I love him! My feelings towards them can't exceed my feeling towards him! Never!

Can't someone brave enough to hold me? please...

OUH! BENCI LA! :@)

3 comments:

  1. that because they only think bout what they feel. they never know what you feel. the person who's can think clearly can see it. ;)

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  2. lol. jap. nak masuk dlm bakul. hahahaha. observer kan. ;)

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